9:16 AM
decided to activate this blog now. quite bent on kicking my vices(ie EXCESSIVE drinking, oh well, moderate is fine though :p) soon. didnt hit the clubs today with the rest as i felt kinda empty and i'm slowly recovering from a sick bug.
met mq today at a pub by the river at boatquay and had a pint. went to Cavern to only have lizards crawling on the tents abv us. one actually crapped on mq's hands. GROSS. See the spots in the picture below? they are freakking lizards! We ended up chatting alot. Abt her bf and all. Tried to persuade her to go fortune telling with me. Nut i'm kinda hesitant though. Kinda aware of my weak health. What if the fortune teller were to tell me bad stuff? Hmm.. Maybe I'll jusy quikly migrate to Hawaii, suntan and play till i drop. Or meet some Hawaiian guy and date like crazy. But then again, I never liked dating caucasians. Or maybe go Taiwan to find jay chou and make him sing shijiemori to me. hahahahaha..
anywayyyyyy.. the lizards.............
Going for lasik soon. BYEBYE SPEKKY!
9:47 AM
tried opening n closing my mouth countless times aft i came home
but no use!!
mouth refused to get bigger
wisdom tooth growing out
i think
cos i can feel it at the back of my mouth
now i know why babies yell n scream n cry n shriek all the time
bcos they're freakking teething
n i am too!
painnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
n im abit emoish kemoish now
cos things arent the same
think im gonna do smt stupid soon
tts going to just go all unappreciated
n wasted
oh well..
moooooooooody monster
11:11 AM
i lost
im always like that
i hate myself
5:57 AM
Stomach feels sick at 9am during this morning's lect
the ciggies didnt help
Flipped updownleftright
Feel like puking
Feel horrible
Dont know why im still feeling like tt
Need to find my remedy like RIGHT NOW
11:03 AM
badbadbad case of depression tonite
im irritated
im depressed
im pmsing
im dunowad ing
damn gao wei
prob its bcos i cannot get the one thing i wan to get
yes
its gonna sound silly
but ive been wanting to say tt since tt day at the interchange
i wan to be cuddled to slp
n nt by just anyone
there. i said it. off my chest.
think im gonna down some alcohol n knock myself out
hopefully i can make it for tmr's 830 lesson
3:53 PM
This is weird
Looking at all my old entries
I seem so high and all
Maybe i still am
Just probably not in the mood now after a particular big episode which just ended in my life
Or maybe its because i'm a little depressed now
Or maybe i'm just slpy
One thing's for sure, im still rambling and it hasnt changed =)
Been drinking quite abit and picked up some vices
I'm determined to cure myself from these vices soon
Especially since i kinda told him i would
Anyways, random pic
Here i am, 2yrs later
This is me now
Happy things happy thing ended
He came and left and I'm still feeling as lost as how i feel 3 years ago
Will someone hold my hand again and tell me where and how to go?
9:53 AM
we were at select when we saw him.. (2nd time for the dae.. probably the last time) anyway.. i just discovered tt their food's like quite nice! im so gonna eat there next week! instead of golden shoe which is bloody smelly n my lunch buddies fav place-banzhu!! which is actually killiney kopitiam.. which i so cannot stand..stayed back late agn..but not as bad as ystd,. ystd was horrible! till 10.30pm! todae was till 8.30..so late.. i bluffed yekwai n told him i was a social escort.. cos i work till so late.. he believed me.. n ask me wad i do? haf meals?haha!probably only he will hire social escorts for meals only..im gg to HAWAIIIII!!! weeeeeee!!i wan a new digicam to capture everything on the trip!im so excited! going with wai ling only!! ive gotten my "hawaii clothes" ready..:)but i haven changed any usd yet! better act fast!gonna be so broke.. just spent 400 plus in two daes.. tour got jacked up to 1900.. 200 dearer.. wad next?cant tk it.. my neck's gonna fall off.. i need a massage badly man.. to heal my aching neck..
